Trying to hold on.

I feel like I’ve lost control of a lot of things …. that something I once knew how to handle is no longer possible and I just keep going downhill with it all …. it’s never reassuring when you feel like you’ve lost control, it’s the scariest feeling in the world and you just want to run away from everything. I’m really trying to turn things around though, trying to stand on my own two feet despite what happens around me and how others move forward. Sigh … my level of motivation has really gone down and I feel like I’m living in constant fear now, fear of failing, fear of only going backwards. I wish it weren’t the case …..

I really could use a hand to hold right now.

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